Busy week

I have had a lovely yet busy week this week although, as a depression sufferer it did have its down times as well. Last sunday was mothers day and i had a lovely day of being pampered and i got a lovely bracelet off my daughter as well as a nice card and a picture painted by her with "I love you mummy" on it. It was also mine and my partners anniversary and he got me a beautiful necklace and made me feel special all day. Last sunday was a good day!!
  This week i have also done something i never thought i would do! I have finally made a career choice and am starting my degree in Criminology and pschological studies in october. I am so relieved to have made a decision at long last. It has only taken 5 years!!! I am really looking forward to it, it is something i have been interested in since i was a little girl and I'm excited to be learning more about it.
   We have also decided this week that we are going to take a holiday in September. We are going to go to Spain for two weeks hopefully. This means however i now have to start dieting and i HATE diets!! I love my food too much to diet but i can't go on holiday with a flabby mummy tummy. So the diet started yesterday and i'm sick of it already. Me and my partner are both doing slimming world which, in all fairness is one of the better diets for being able to eat quite a lot of food. However, i do miss bread and being able to have sugar in my tea.
    On friday i took my daughter to join the library and we went to something called "story time". It speaks for itself really but it is basically a nice afternoon where parents and children can enjoy listening to stories at the library and they also get to sing songs, dance, play some musical instruments and have a good look at some of the books for themselves. I had a good time although i was not in the slightest bit impressed when an older boy came over and pushed my little one over! But, that's kids i guess. She was OK and the mother was very apologetic. After that we went and got her measured for her first pair of big girl shoes. She has started walking very well on her own this week and i have been beaming with pride! Now she has her shoes she has been walking outside a lot and is loving all the new things she can explore although, steps are still an issue but she will get there i'm sure.
   Today my partner is off work and the weather is glorious so we are all going out for a nice family picnic. Although, a slimming world friendly picnic isn't as good as a normal one but i will have to make do. It is near a lake about 10 miles from where we live but i have a feeling it will be quite busy up there today with the weather being so nice. I better go and have some breakfast....an apple!! whoopy friggin doo! haha

You think you know someone....

But then it comes to buying an anniversary present and you realise how little you really do know! In case you hadn't already guessed it is mine and my partners anniversary tomorrow. Today i have to go and buy a gift and do i know what to get? nope, not a clue. I have this dilemma every birthday, christmas and anniversary. I ask myself the same questions "what would he like?" "what does he need?" "does he want something he needs or something he wants?". He isn't a typical guy who loves football, the pub and gadgets although, my job of gift buying would be made a lot easier if he did like those things. He doesn't like jewellery and he doesn't really have any hobbies outside of his job other than music and i wouldn't have a clue what i was looking for in that department anyway. The worst part of this is that he has the car at the moment and won't be home until 4.30 which only gives me roughly an hour of shops being open to actually buy something!! He is, without a doubt, the hardest person in the world to buy for. I have searched online for some ideas for well over an hour now and so far all i have found are things so unbelievably soppy that you would be ashamed to have them on show!  I have been down the road of nice traditional gifts, slippers, socks, jumpers....but then i realised that we are entering summer and these gifts might not come into use for another year! Also, he hates slippers! (who hates slippers?!) There are things he wants but unfortunately, i do not have a magic money tree to be able to afford such things.....such as a decent fountain pen, an ebook reader, a new computer (again, very out of my depth here!). I have even tried asking a couple of male friends on their opinion but, as my partner acts his age, my male friends act their shoe size and would still love a hooker or a remote control car as a present. I have a chore on my hands today, i shall update with what i manage to buy and wether he likes it or not. Wish me luck

PS: This job has been made doubly difficult as it is also mothers day tomorrow and as my partner is the No.1 most difficult person to buy for in my life, it just so happens that my mother is No.2! Excellent

The Good Life?

When i was a lass i always remember watching all the old TV programs with my parents whilst eating our tea on our lap trays! we weren't a very civilised family, eating round the table was for special occasions only. But, i always remember watching Porridge, Only fools and horses, open all hours but, the one i loved the most had to be The good life. I loved the good life! It was my dream in a television program. At the moment we live in a top floor apartment so being completely self sufficiant is impossible but i can't wait to move to the country. I would love to get up in the morning to feed the chickens, ducks, geese, may be a few pigs and goats too. The kitchen is where the magic happens in a home in my opinion. There is no greater pleasure than cooking a wonderful hearty meal for your family and then all sitting down to enjoy it together whilst having a good old chat about the type of day everyone has had. Cooking is a great pleasure of mine but what makes it all the more pleasurable is being able to use fresh ingredients that you have grown or reared yourself. There is so much more flavour in home grown fruit, veg and herbs than there is in anything you can buy from the supermarket. The future excites me as i know it is exactly what my partner wants also. Another great thing about having animals is that i can bring the children up knowing how to treat animals properly and educating them on where we get our food from. I have been looking at houses recently longing for the time to come where we can pack up, move away and start our new self sufficiant life together in the country but for now, i best get back to my chicken dinner cooking away on the stove.

Something new

This evening I have decided to start a blog to off-load some thoughts and feelings with the people of the online world. I am a 22 year old mum and wife and even though some might think there can't be much going on in the life of a girl like me, I am sure i can suprise you sometimes with the amount of crazy things that happen in this small town in which i live. Let me start by giving you the cut down version of my life so far.
   I was born to a mother and a father in a small town in North Wales. My parents had (and still do have) gypsy blood in them and can never stay in one place for longer than a few months. Because of this i moved house 46 times between the ages of 0-18. We lived everywhere from North Wales to the Isle Of Wight, from the Midlands to the Lake District. I dropped out of school at 14 having gained no qualifications and went to work full time in a restaurant. This is where i met my first husband. We moved in together and got married when i was 18. The marriage was a complete failure and disaster. He turned out to be not a very nice person and would go on to hurt me quite badly with his fists and the odd mind game. We finally came to an end in the summer of 2008, a little after a year of marriage. I confided in a friend of mine, who would become my rock and my soulmate. We have since moved in together and had a baby girl and even though we aren't officially married, i feel like i am in more of a marriage now than i ever was and have never been happier. Because of the constant moving i never really made many friends but the friends i did make have stayed with me so far but over the years we have all gone our seperate ways and found different paths and even though we are still in touch, i wouldn't call them close friends anymore. Since having my daughter my perspective has certainly changed and my goals in life have also altered some-what. All for the better may i add.
    Today, i had a row with my little girls godmother. She was like my rock towards the end of my pregnancy and she was even in the delivery suite when i gave birth. She was diagnosed with an illness and then became pregnant herself. Since then she has become probably one of the most nasty and inconsiderate, selfish people i know. Having that argument with her today (which was ultimately the end of our friendship) has made me realise how many people i have in my life who cause me heartache and grief that i just don't need. So, in a moment of braveness and rage, i deleted my facebook account and culled my phonebook! Childish i know but for me it is like a new begginning. The people i am leaving behind are those who either won't even know i am gone or those who just aren't in my social circle anymore. The argument today got to me because i was not allowed to put my point across, but of course she was allowed her say. She is not the only woman in the world to ever be pregnant with an illness and as far as i am concerened our friendship is over. I hate how people change, and how people think that letting you down is perfectly acceptable. I have vented todays frustrations and anyone who has read this far must be bored. More tomorrow may be. Night Night all.